thy rutted music, filled with sync;
Sunday, May 15, 2011
C-H-O-I-C-E
It's been such a long time since I had to face this.
I've not prepared yet
And I don't wish to face it.
However it seems like I had no way out but to make a choice.
I told myself not to fall into it again.
I prayed, I prayed lord to seal my mind.
But why, I had to face it again?
One and a quarter of year.
It's been tiring for me.
I keep on telling myself, I'll not. I'll not.
Too tired.
For everything.
Just for a little reply from you.
My mind is way way exhausted.
But why?
When I sealed my mind,
When I tempted not to think,
When I tried to forget.
There it goes.
It happened. As usual.
Maybe I was too silly.
Too silly to wait for you.
I must thank God for reminding me of it.
I MUST thank God for letting me to know what I should do,
and what I promised to Him, and to you.
In others' eyes,
I'm just too silly.
Do you still remember the promise we made?
How we meet, what had the both of me and you promised to each other.
Now, I'll not be the silly one, to stand there and watch.
I'll take my move, to bring you to God.
I'll hold the promise, till the end.
God, the almighty Lord,
If this is in Your will, please, I pray.
If I could, please allow me to do so.
However, not in my will, but in Yours.
If You allow, please grant me with wisdom,
Fill me with Your bless,
Touch my heart with Your promise.
Yes Lord,
Please, please let me know of what I should say,
What I should do,
To bring her to You.
Please give me the time of five years,
So that I could have bring her to You.
Lord, I promise You,
Just like what You had promised to us, the sinners.
May your power, your strength, your gospel, and your love,
To be known to the whole world.
In the name of Jesus, Amen.
I always asked people to face the problem,
to seek for the solution,
to be true to themselves.
However,
I'm the one,
Whom tempted to run away from all the difficulties I meet.
I'm not, the true side of me.
-fusion of black&white
9:52:00 PM
